I can't hear your voice anymore, please talk to me once again, I look everywhere for your smiling face, I know I'll never find you, I'm in the wrong place, I dream of finding you one day, dreaming of you is the only way, Dreams are all I've got, stop searcing for you, I will not. I woke up one morning and four turned into three, no way, this isnt happening to me, This isn't the way its meant to be, what has happened to my little family, Just like that and you we're gone, disappeared, gone, just gone, Life without yoI look for you in my dreams matthew, shouting you, crying out your name, u is to hard to face, where are you, you've left me no trace, I don't know how I've lived and breathed without you being here, I've only just existed, and now its been another year. Facing everyday is a massive task, life without you feels like to much to ask, I dont know how I'm surviving without you matthew, The pain, the pain, go's over and over, again and again, Ripping at my heart is what I feel, smacks in the face, Blows in the stomache, this pain is very real. Life isn't fair as I now know,for this pain I know will never ever go, Nothing can make this pain stop, thoughts and feelings of you are all I've got, Dread, fear, loneliness the lot, thoughts of you going around and round, I wish I could curl up in a ball somewhere never to be found. I can't go anywhere where your shoes may have trodden, too many memories, where you have been, what you have done, memories of you hurt, but will never be forgotten, I can go places where your shoes never did tred Theres no memories of you being there in my head. Photo's of you are everywhere, but I can't look at you, its far to hard for me to bare, I miss you so much, it hurts and hurts, I think of your funeral, on the way to the church, It wasn't for your wedding day, that I will never see, there will never be no bride-to-be, Never again, never anymore, it stops right here for us, the family and me. I'm devastated, my worlds fell apart, I'm now living with a hole in my broken heart, I feel like an alien, living in civilian space, always a smile and a brave face, It's always a show, of course people know, This, me, I, that I carry, is now my shell, for now I have died inside too, This life im now living, is now my pure hell. Life go's on for other people, rushing around with their feet firmly on the ground, To me its a big wide world out there, I hate it when they look or stare, Feels like groundhog day,thats what it is, everyday the same hurt and pain, I'm stuck in this rut, and I can't get up. I'll carry on dreaming,searching for you, crying out your name, trying to find you everywhere, I will look for you my true love One day, matthew,, I will find you somewere in the big blue sky, And then I will know, that we don't die, Cuz, I've found your face, I've got to the right place. When I've found you, I know that you'll be waiting for me at heavens gate I can't believe I've found you, I feel great, It's been a long time that I had to wait, No-more heartache, no-more hurt and pain, it's over, I've found you, we're together again, it's over, I've got my man, my pride and joy, NO MORE PAIN.